[ This is not fine. This is not fine at all. It takes a lot to tamp down on her anger, of this place making people commit murder like this. Even if she's revived, it's not right. ]
[ she just nods, and there's a moment before she continues. ]
I was the murderer. It was like-- a switch suddenly turned on, and I was playing along with it. And then after we voted and they realized it was me, I attacked them. It was either I killed them, or they had to kill me.
But it does explain a lot. Shinobu's expression softens. She's still angry about the circumstances of the break in, but it's Steph who's important here. ]
[ Shinobu would have offered to fight Steph after Hikage died, if she weren't cursed, but now that Steph just came from fighting and trying to kill against her will, she thinks a hug is the better option.
With permission, Shinobu wraps her arms around Stephanie, gentle and mindful of injuries. ]
stephanie accepts the hug, leaning into it as much as she can that's actually comfortable. it's funny, since she's actually a rather physically affectionate person, but she doesn't receive a lot of it. ]
[ there’s a small smile, but sincere, and she’ll reach over to hug shinobu. like the first one, this one is careful to not aggravate any wounds, but she tries to put as much weight into it without making it uncomfortable. have a hug, shinobu. ]
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well, she is pretty sure that someone is going to out what happened anyway, so. ]
They had to kill me so that we could leave.
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What?
[ This is not fine. This is not fine at all. It takes a lot to tamp down on her anger, of this place making people commit murder like this. Even if she's revived, it's not right. ]
I hate this place.
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I was the murderer. It was like-- a switch suddenly turned on, and I was playing along with it. And then after we voted and they realized it was me, I attacked them. It was either I killed them, or they had to kill me.
[ and since it was 3 on 1, of course they won. ]
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[ That's horrific. As if she couldn't hate what she was hearing even more, now she does. ]
I'm so sorry. You didn't deserve that. None of you did.
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ALSO FUCK YOU I HATE YOU I WAS WRITING THIS TAG WHEN THE ANNOUNCEMENT WENT UP]
... thanks. I'm just glad the people I was with could defend themselves.
[ imagine if steph went with people who weren't good fighters haha that would have been bad. ]
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But it does explain a lot. Shinobu's expression softens. She's still angry about the circumstances of the break in, but it's Steph who's important here. ]
Would you accept a hug?
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... yeah.
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With permission, Shinobu wraps her arms around Stephanie, gentle and mindful of injuries. ]
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stephanie accepts the hug, leaning into it as much as she can that's actually comfortable. it's funny, since she's actually a rather physically affectionate person, but she doesn't receive a lot of it. ]
... thank you.
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Shinobu pulls away after a moment. ]
You deserve at least this much, after everything you've been put through lately.
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[ murdergames are... bad. ]
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Does that mean you don't deserve it?
[ Murdergames are bad. Everyone is suffering, but that doesn't negate that she deserves a hug.
Most of the people here do for one reason or another. ]
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[ hm.
she sighs. ]
I don't know. Probably not.
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Shinobu continues to smile. ]
Things don't have to be worse for you in order for you to deserve some kindness. Or for anyone else.
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shinobu really is kind. it's a little amazing. ]
Are you doing okay?
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Without much of a budge of her smile: ]
I can't say I honestly am, but that doesn't mean I get to stop.
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she hums lightly, thinking. ]
Would you like a hug? Or was that last one enough hugging?
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... That last one was enough, but I won't say no to another.
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[ there’s a small smile, but sincere, and she’ll reach over to hug shinobu. like the first one, this one is careful to not aggravate any wounds, but she tries to put as much weight into it without making it uncomfortable. have a hug, shinobu. ]
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... It's my turn to say thank you.
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I guess we'll be stuck on a thanking loop.